Well I'm not gonna force you to read my blog, but if you should happen to stumble upon it, take the time to sift through it as it may prove to be of some relevance to you. God forbid, you may actually enjoy it and you would wish to click the button which would mean you were eternally my follower. There isn't really any sort of meaning or specific task that this blog sets out to fulfil, think of it as bohemian.
Monday, 3 May 2010
It was a situation where, normally you'd be happy.
I'm disgusted in myself for almost making it seem like a game, like I had lost. As if it were some ultimate prize that I was fighting for. It's so much more than that though, and I did lose really.
I lost that which I never had in the first place.
If I could turn back time, maybe I would've tried to make it even clearer to you. Could've spared me a few things.
Let me explain how I feel right now.
I've got the most insane and electrified butterflies in my stomach but... All of their wings have been pulled off. So all they can do, is crawl. Crawl inside of me and make me feel sick and putrid.
Maybe that would help?