*drools*

<3

She makes me feel like it's raining outside,

And when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside.

I'm always nervous on days like this, like the prom.

I get too scared to move, cause I'm still just a stupid, worthless boy.

Sussex University. Check.

Epiphone Les Paul Prophecy GX. Check.

I want to go to that University so badly. Brighton is the perfect place for me at that age.

I want that guitar so badly. It just felt perfect in my hands. The tone was immense. I couldn't believe that a guitar could actually sound that good.

I've had a headache all day which has really been bugging me but, still, today was alright really.

Had a bit of a "heavy" feeling today though.

SO MUCH HOMEWORK! D:

I hate getting to the weekend and being so worn out that you just can't even look forward to it.

And the fact that I'm not going to have a weekend seeing as how I'm going to a University Open Day in Sussex.

Ugh.

Really could do with a pair of welcoming arms right now.

My eyes hurt from being so tired, to the point where its actually just not worth keeping them open. And in actual fact I am typing this with my eyes closed so if I make any mistakes I'm not going to correct them.

*opens eyes*

I'll share my dream with you from last night:

I dreamt that I was in a perfect summer's blossom.

The trees were a beautiful shade of fuchsia and the petals of the flowers littered the pavement that I walked on.

Everywhere I looked people were happy. Couples walked together smiling and gazing into each other's eyes. Parents watched as their children played in the grass, staining their clothes. Elderly people sat and reminisced about the times they wish they could still live. Everything was perfect.

For them.

As I walked on, the entire world warped. The trees became petrified and the branches became white as bone. The petals on the floor rotted and coated the pavement in a thick, black sheen.

There were no couples, only solitary people who only seemed to live for hatred. The children, however, played on unaware. They rolled around in the floor, only to stand up covered in red stains. They blissfully continued as if all was well. The elderly people had vanished altogether, leaving only the memories that they had experienced in wallets and purses, forever imprinted into photographs that no one would take notice of.

Coming to the end of what seemed like a road. I found a door. It looked curiously familiar, yet also displaced as if it should never have been there in the first place. Upon opening it, I stumble onto another familiar scene. I turned around to look back on what I had just walked out of only to realise something that made me cry when I woke up.

I had walked out of my own house.

It crumbled around me after I had realised this, revealing three people. They all went their seperate ways. After this, the world returned to its normal, blissfully ignorant summers day. I went on, happy and with shoulders relieved.

Only in a dream.

Things I love.

I love seeing people in the morning when they look all tired and rough.

I love when people are so cold that they just steal hugs from me.

I love being able to see my own breath.

I love seeing people's eyes change colour in the sunlight.

I love when someone has an itchy nose and they scrunch their face up.

I love seeing someone smile at something in their head.

I love listening to my iPod with people.

I love when people ask for my help.

I love when I see parents doting on their babies.

I love hearing people laugh but not being able to stop.

I love waking up knowing I get to see my friends in a few hours.

I love being away from home.

I love holding hands with someone and it just feels right.

I love the moment just before your lips touch where your bodies just fit like a jigsaw.

I love the smell of clean hair.

I love the days where you feel so cosy you can't be bothered for anything so you just curl up.

I love when you feel appreciated.

I love seeing girls who try to hide themselves when they really don't need to.

I love hearing music that makes me cry.

I love helping people achieve a look.

I love being able to listen to a piece of music and feeling proud enough to say, "I wrote that."

I love getting on a bus with no people on it.

I love sleeping on trains.

I love when friends try to make you feel better even though its probably not worth trying.

I love going to bed wondering how on earth tomorrow could be better than today.

I love feeling warm because of someone else.

I love going to festivals.

I love creative people and being creative.

I love reading horoscopes and getting excited over them.

I love giving clothes to people to keep them warm even though I might not get them back.

I love knowing that all of these wouldn't amount to you though.

And that's what matters most at the moment.

Nothing like a good piercing (or four) to release a bit of negativity.

Performed one daith, one tragus, one helix and one hip skin diver today. Was good fun although I could tell that Paula and Shell didn't have so much fun. The balls had the smallest of dimples so it was kind of hard to get them in =/. I'll nab some pictures for it and post them soon.

College was awful today. I now officially hate maths and I mainly hate mechanics. There was a reason I didn't choose physics for A levels.

I don't want to go in tomorrow. I really, really don't...

The only good thing to come from negative emotion is beautiful music.

A* in Music here I come...

Its so tempting to just, reach out sometimes.

But you can't.

You just can't.

I feel hurt...

Why?

We'll never find out perhaps.

Bring the light.

Shot down I stood
Withstood my neighborhood
I got it wrong
But I could
Follow love lest I learn

It's light
To bring the light
I fought with all my might
With light
Oh bring the light

Light
Bring the light
I never felt so good and right
But tonight
You'll never need another sound
Oh bring the light
Bring the light to me

Here and gone oh I trust
You'd spit upon my dust
And mix my ash with your blood
A son of God you know you must arrive
In the light
Bring the light
Let's bring the light
Light
Oh bring the light

Light
Bring the light
It's yours not mine
If you just want to survive
Go grab a glimpse of any star
In heaven's high
I never felt so real and loved and alive
No shadows follow me unsung
In the light
Bring the light to me

A flower song, clear and bright
Is it wrong in neon white
To insist you are mine
Standing dumb in the light

Bring the light
Oh bring the light
Bring the light

Light
Bring the light
I never felt so real and right and alive
Don't let them steal you from what's yours by right
Light
Bring the light
You know there comes a place and time
You can't deny
With every movement shadows cast and align

Bring the light
Bring the light
Bring the light
Let's bring the light
Light
Bring the light
Bring the light
Let's bring the light
Light
Bring the light
Bring the light
Let's bring the light
Light
Bring the light
Bring the light
Let's bring the light
Light

Sigh.

Well.

I was just in a car crash...

This day gets better and better.

Sigh.

You can always trust in your family to make you feel like crap...

I need to get away from here.

Yesterday I drank my first coffee.

It was surprisingly nice considering I hate coffee (:S)

Perhaps it was just because it was consumed in Central Perk Café.

Who knows. All I know now is that I want another one ¬¬

Moving on from that, yesterday was a good day :D

Traversing to Ealing Broadway to meet Paula and Nadia and then traversing to East Acton to meet Shell and then traversing to Oxford Circus to queue up to get into Central Perk Café (this took three hours).

Meeting Lounisse, Sean and Hannah in the queue about 5 minutes after we got there and then meeting Drilon about an hour after we got there.

Chris eventually found his way to us two hours later, followed by Andy.

High fives go out to the woman that baited out the two queue jumpers LOL!

Chinese was nice afterwards but I really didn't want it =[

Thank you to Paula for buying my travelcard yesterday but I feel bad for that (it costs £6.30!).

Thank you to Lounisse and Chris for buying the Shredded Chicken Noodles that I really didn't want them to buy for me because I would also feel very bad for that...

People spent £11.70 on me yesterday ¬¬

I also got to see Danielle and Chris afterwards on the way home. We watched Lord of the Rings/The X Factor/You, Me & Dupree/The Boondocks.

Speaking of Chris, one of my packages has arrived but I'm not sure which one because they left that goddamn red note saying that they couldn't deliver it =[

Early start on Monday so I can collect it from the Post Office then.

This has been a very long post I know, but I feel as if yesterday necessitated it as it was (as I predicted) a good day.

Finally I leave you with the usual "song-I'm-listening-to-at-the-moment".

Smashing Pumpkins are such a dream of a band...

Good morning.

On this day that is the 3rd of October 2009:

I shall be traversing to Central Perk Café today with numerous friends to get a free cup of coffee (of which I don't drink anyway :P)

I can almost certainly guarantee there will be a Wispa moment :D

Also, I had a massive treatment for my knuckle and its working very well. Swelling has gone down, redness has gone down to a radius of 1mm approx. Pain has gone down and also it just feels better :)

On a final note, my heart goes out to the Philippines. Its awful what's happened there =[

This song was in my head when I woke up so, I'll share it with you so that you can hum along.

Today will be a good day :D

I feel...

Lovely :)

Thank you to everyone who helped make this day so lovely.

Talking is always such a nice way to make me feel better. (note this for future reference in the event I don't feel so great)

I am looking forward to tomorrow as well. We're going to the Central Perk Café in Central London. Exciting stuff, but more importantly I get to be with all my friends who I love dearly.

Smiles.

Wispa Moment #1

Being with Shell, Paula and Nadia after school was lovely :)

Thank you Wispa for making it even lovelier.

Success!

I PASSED MY MATHS TEST :D barely.

41% LOL! Pass grade was 30% :P That was a scary moment for me.

I get to keep Further Maths as a subject now ^^ so, so relieved about that :')

Katherine was being generous today and so she gave me two cigarettes <3

AND!!! Siân lost my fucking hat!

Grr.

Still waiting on the needles to be dispatched as well...

Nevertheless, this song always makes me smile so I live on ♥

I figured out how to do it :D

Not sure if this will work...

But that is a sick cover of Fat Lip - Sum 41 haha.

Uh-oh.

My knuckle implant is bruised and this really worries me =/

An increased amoont of build-up of blood cells may lead to my body trying to force it out as if it was on obstruction and/or cause to the bruise. Which I am very worried about...

Its sort of stiff and its red around the area and it hurts a bit when I move my index and middle fingers.

Lets hope it passes.

On a happier note. My shipment of jewellery and dermal biopsy punch has been dispatched from Thailand today :D Just waiting on the bulk cannula needles to be dispatched and I'll be a happy bunny.

Also, Chris Eibich's computer screen is fucking huge O_O it puts mine to shame...

I had a nice day today really. Although I really shouldn't have (for some unknown reason). Still no "Wispa moments" to report, although I expect there will be some coming soon (:

On a final note, I think Nadia's hair looks lovely and Paula should get a cookie for that ^^ (or a Wispa?)

That is all on the day which is the 1st October 2009.

AH just reminded myself to say, fuck TfL and its ridiculously high priced fares for the tube and bus. It cost me over £8 just to get to college and back again today. On the plus side, I realised that it is possible for me to take the bus ALL the way to college so that, when my new Oyster card arrives, I can get free travel :D

On the negative side of that, it will take me approximately twice the amount of time it would otherwise take me to get to college. Which means that on some days I will need to leave the house at quarter past seven.

Bummer.

I'm done. Tarrah (until I get bored enough to say something once again) (L)